Turning point in life...

Tuesday, February 27, 2007 . 12:16 PM

Ok. i haven't been updating this... thanks to karryn's reminder yesterday.
The past week was long and tiring.

ok. let me start frm feb 14...

Feb 14... Wed
went to childcare. celebrated yahmei's bday. It was supposed to be a surprise. but in the end, it was exposed before the actual thing started.

then went out with a friend. met yahmei n crystal on our way. Anna bugged me. So we met her. And had dinner with mich as well. Aft that, went for movie. It was.. hmm.. not my kind. Went for supper. And.. can't believe i missed mich. my gosh. both of us were like..aww man, why nv see u!

Feb 15...Thurs
went for driving i think. then met mich for dinner. on the way i saw my aunt buying cny cookies. tt bloody mich was falling asleep. darn it. in the end, she said.. "you are my filter". haha... fine.

Feb 16... Fri
met up with mich. ate the wanchai hk cafe thingy. it was.. bleah. nth comparable to hk's sweet dynasty lor. we were disgusted by the ice cream in the milk tea/yuan yang. Went for driving.

Feb17.. Sat
reunion lunch at my grandma's hse... then reunion dinner at my grandparent's hse.
i'll nv forget this one. This would be the most memoriable dinner ever.

Feb 18..Sun
as usual..cny day 1 would be vising my granparents then going to my grandma's hse..then coming back to my grandparent's hse. then went home. received a call frm mama.. my parents rushed to their hse. i can't rmb at wad time.. my mum called. she said ah kong passed away.
ok. i didn't react much. i was just. huh? still in state of denial. just tt my heart was beating so much. i was wishing tt she's joking. so i took a cab. before taking a cab, i called mich. when she pick up, i knew it was the truth. my heart was racing. i didn't talk to my bro at all. when i went into the hse, everyone there were crying. My dad asked me to go into the room.
Ok. i broke down when i saw ah kong. i mean, just 2 hrs ago, he was smiling saying thanks for helping.. i said bye to him. and now?
i couldn't control anymore. my tears kept flowing. my parents came and hugged me. mich was there. i think she saw me n she was affected n started tearing again. i just couldn't stop. i knew i was not supposed to cry, but..i just couldn't help it.

a lot of things happened very fast. we had to prepare the clothes for him, and to arrange the funeral. and.. some doctor came n kept asking qns.. very attitude. it was bcos of him tt i stopped crying n was fed up instead. i could tell everyone wanted to strangle him.

and so, we left at 3am plus..

So..frm feb 19-23 we were all occupied with the funeral. actually, before the rituals started on thurs, my emotions were quite stable.. as in, i kinda stopped thinking abt sad things. in a way, i was in a state of denial. Oh, n i met mich's frens.. it seems fun to be with them. she's lucky to haf these bunch of frens sia. haha.


anyway, it's been a tough week. i tell myself not to think much. n i finished bad family already.

i miss you ah kong.

and.. take care ya mich? remember our marche hor. and anything u need help with for the adhd n the asd u can ask me. =)