Seeing black...then...

Wednesday, August 09, 2006 . 3:54 PM

well..it all happened during my last cd lect.. we handed up our play kit.. and it was so nicely done.. haha.. made fun of others... ahem... and we saw that thing again... jas purposely went to poke fun at her... and i wanted to laugh lor.. stupid jas..haha.. haiz.. we are all wormy-fanatic.. esp at the end of this sem... which is like ending in 2 days time.. can't wait..!

anyway, we had to do this module evaluation.. and i decided to go to the washroom..with tania.. i jumped up and ran out of the room... i tot i could siam and not do these stuffs... aft coming out of the washroom.. i felt sth wrong.. my leg was like... having ant-bites.. i think too numb liaoz.. just didn't feel so good.. and went back to do that evaluation... so i handed it up..and left the room with them..rushed to the lift landing..as usual.. that was the part i felt so sick...

i rmb my vision was getting dimmer and dimmer...as i walked towards the lift landing.... i told them.. i dun feel so well.. i think i take a cab...then... my ears were blocked.. i could hear a bit of the stuffs they were talking.. but it was really dark.. then it became red... i immediately told them tt i can't really see them.. i dun feel so well.. i think they tot tt i was joking.. i felt giddy.. and leaned against the wall.. by then..there were so many pple waiting at the lift landing.. it was so crowded and stuffy... i recalled jas leading me to the washroom..cos i really couldn't see... and i told them i am going to puke... man.. i tot i could just brush off the nausea... plus the black cum redness... since i normally get the blackness aft i bend down my head for a long time... but this one.. it was not that easy to overcome... well.. in the end, i didn't puke... but we went to sit down..at the shoe rack there.. cos tt's the only place.. i was like.. shucks.. i dun think i can even make it downstairs.. (my lect's at lvl 5...still gotta wait for lift..)... jas told me to call my dad.. i was like.. u help me talk to him.. that seasick feeling came back again.. she talked to my dad..and passed the phone to me.. i think my dad tot tt she was playing a prank..haiz.. cos the previous day, jas and anna took a shun feng che in my dad's car.. haha.. then.. i was told to tell them.. if i collapse b4 he arrive, they call the ambulance... actually... at the lift landing..i wanted to faint already.. but i keep telling myself.. no.. if i collapse, my laptop how? (cos i was carrying my laptop..) and it would be kinda malu to do that in front of so many pple.. my knees were weak... but i kept holding on the the wall.. haha.. so much for being concerned of my image... yes.. but i dun wanna do that..

we sat there.. they were like telling me how pale my lips were.. and i was so white.. man..they shld haf taken a pic of me.. i always wanted to know how do i look when i was pale... i wanted to assure them i'm ok..but i guess.. i can't fake it... i was seriously sick... and the weird part..pple still can say bye to us..lol.. i guess i looked normal? or maybe i'm transparent... i guess so..haha... so..we had our second attempt at the lift landing... we let the others leave first.. and.. my vision became dim again.. with some cloudy effects... seasick feeling came back.. i sat down... at this point..i couldn't care how dumb or sick i looked when i sat at the lift landing.. the lift came.. n we went in.. and omg..i wanted to die.. seriously.. still gotta wait for pple to get out of the lift at the 3rd level... i wanted to puke..

when we reached level 1.. i was elated.. i tot tt i would be stuck at level 5... well.. couldn't find seats.. i just sat on the floor.. i couldn't care anymore.. i just needed to sit..or it'll get all dim and nausea... man.. n we began our 'long' wait there.. i felt real bad..cos they were standing and waiting with me.. i guess they didn't dare to sit down on the floor..haha.. we were like looking at the workers sawing the trees...lol.. well..my stomach slowly started to settle.. but i still feel giddy..and sleepy.. i rmb my lecturer...still can ask us wad we doing..lol.. i mean.. can't u see me sitting down there? maybe cos i looked well already? haha.. at last..my parents came.. my mum was seriously worried.. she tot it was the puffs she bought for my lunch that made me like this.. i suspected tt i might be sick...cos of the pple ard me..coughing away...esp jas..haha.. ;P... and cos i had to eat this medicine which will lower my immune system.. but i doubt so...aft i woke up at 7pm last night.. i think.. i felt better..even watched High School Musical.. haha.. and i was like.. no need to go to doc's... dun need to waste money..when i'm feeling better... so..i guess.. i stood up too fast..and the change in blood pressure? sth like tt.. and.. i shld haf breathe in deeply when i was about to faint... cos i realized tt i wasn't even breathing.. or maybe i was shallow breathing.. cos jas was telling me to breathe..maybe not enuff oxygen in the brain...

can't wait for my exams to end! and Happy National Day! which means.. all channels are gonna feature the same thing..but in diff language.. lucky i've got scv and my laptop with me! hee...